Thursday, February 13, 2014

Why I loved him….

Well this post is inspired by a true story which has been experienced by a friend of mine. It is written with her sincere permission and is dedicated on her behalf to all those beautiful couples who celebrate Valentine’s Day today sharing such a wonderful love ^_^
May you all win, succeed and live you love for a life time full of happiness… :)

Once in a blissful day, I met him…,
It was out of nowhere; so sudden and surprising…
We got along “really well” little by little
And the more we got to know each other
The more we fell in love
And every time of seeing each other
We fell in love again and again…..
To love and to be loved like that
Are like the most blessed feelings
In the whole wide universe……..
And now that we’re officially separated (see I used passive voice J
I think back to see
Why did I actually love him……….? :)

I loved him because I knew he loved me;
And for I felt that love deep deep inside…….
I loved him because he made me
Feel so safe, secured and good………..
I loved him because he never left me alone,
For he was always ALWAYS there, right beside me……….
I loved him because he never made me
Feel small, invisible or un-heard………..

I loved it when he held my hand
Like a father escorting his baby girl…..
I loved it when he wipes the sweat
Off of my face like a brother would do……
I loved it when he teased and bugged me
Where we fought like best friends do……
I loved him for treating me like a kid
And I loved him for loving me for who I am…
I loved him for knowing my weaknesses
And yet loving me even more……
I loved him for loving me even when I’m a Buddhist
I loved him for being real himself……..
I loved him for bearing up with me
When I go crazy over every little thing;
Which now really feels like a waste of time…..
I loved him for trying to make me smile
I loved him for making me feel so loved;
The very reason I could never hate him
For not being a Buddhist;
And the very reason we couldn’t let go
Of each other for so long..................

And now though the decision is made
I am at peace in my heart
For I’ve no regrets of our time together
For I know our love was true and pure
For I loved and treasured him as my first love…..
We’ve been living in each others’ lives
For an year or more
And I’ll always love those precious memories
But no that doesn’t mean I will not move on…………………………

I ‘will’ move on;
Cuz I want him to move on and live his life,
Cuz I want him to feel happy and loved again,
Cuz I wanna prove myself that we made the right decision
And all the hazel we went through was worth it……..
Cuz I am a regretless person,
For I loved him once so much that
He could too be proud of his first love………..

So darlings, if you’re today with that precious person who makes you feel the most awesome feeling you’ve so far ever felt, if s/he makes the world around you move slow, if s/he makes you smile whenever you think of em,  make sure you do everything to make yourself stick to them. And if you are one of those very few lucky souls to have such a person beside you, be sincere, open and honest with them. Don’t ever play with such a precious heart for as you all know what goes around always comes around.
And please guys, don’t waste your precious time fighting over little stupid things or hurting each other for fun, cuz time is very limited and precious for every next second is unpredictable.

Live the moment, fight for your love;
But when it comes to making decisions, please, always ALWAYS look up to your brains…. If every bit of fact proves you that you can’t be happy together, be smart and trust your brain in that case rather than trying to convince it. Because not everyone is strong enough to accept such a thing no matter how obvious it is and if you are, well I can only imagine how strong you can be... And don’t ever lose faith in whatever that you are believing, cuz trust me when I say it; everything happens for a reason; and EVERYTHING happens for the best…..

But… if you must let that person go, please please make sure that you’ve tried your best. Be in a position that you don’t have any reason to be ashamed of yourself for you’ve fought your best to save your love before you let it go.
Because then… your heart will be at peace and then… no matter how much it weeps, trust me it will always move on…
Because LIFE… always ALWAYS moves on………

Happy Valentine’s Day folks... with lots of love!!! <3

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Looking BACK at the passed 2013!! :)

Well….okay... you really don’t need to give me that look, I know it has been already one month from the new year and probably it is too late to write up a review of 2013 now..  But fyi I had exams since 31st so yeah….and it’s better late than never :D :P

Okay… Going back to the memories of 2013… hmm... well the year sure started with lots and lots of complications (if only you knew what I meant)

I had been selected to uni, and it had been long since I had given up on the idea of going to uni. It had been dragged too long and I was working and was earning (which was a pretty good feeling ;) ) and I didn’t see the point of spending three or four years again torturing myself with studies... aaand yeah, above all of that, frankly it was just cause I wanted to stay at the place I worked, that I didn’t wanna quit and leave the people that I gotta know from there. By that time my life was an utter pool of mess and this need to make a decision too contributed really well. And then came this letter for the so called leadership training thing, and if you knew me you would surely knew I hated it :P and I sure didn’t wanna go and oh yes I didn’t!! :D B)

I called all the responsible people and those that I knew to make sure that there was no impact of not taking part in it, and I was obviously not gonna get leave for such long period.. And c’mon if I were to quit the job, I should make the most of my time being there at least... So later on many people said all sorta things about this training thing; goods and bads. But trust me; I will never ever EVER regret not taking part in it! :D :P

And yes the decision was finally made to take the chance that was given to me to enter uni, after all the long discussions, advises and scolding of my family, friends, teachers and everyone else. I quit my job, they threw me a farewell ceremony. The speeches many of my colleagues and bosses made, how I cried, I remember them all just like it all happened yesterday...  From anywhere that you go, collecting people is the most precious thing to have... and that was what I had from my workplace which will always stay in my memories as the place where I did my first job and which taught me so many things about the society and the people in it. All the fun we had in there, the Friday games, birthday parties and all the trips and outings, being loved and being bugged (oh yes lasi, you’re not forgotten :P)... I truly miss them all..

Well, then came the day of registrations, my mom and dad were out of country so had to go with chooty akka and ayya and as you’all know, my first impression of uni was horrible, cause I believed my life is gonna be miserable from that moment onwards and I didn’t wanna think any good about it. C’mon! what good can there be, it made me quit my job and then I had to stay at a boarding place away from home  (thankfully with my bestie from school though, phew)  and had to engaged myself with the process of studying AGAIN! Seriously that was the first time that I stayed away from home “on my own”! At all other times, there was “someone”  from family. But here it was just I, me and myself which made me hate it. I literally hated it all..

Aaand then after the orientations the real uni life started folks. And were “not” ragged since we were science undergrads! (-_-)

Anyways, the time rolled on you know, before I knew it I was surrounded by a group of people who made me feel home, the place I hated most had become a part of myself. Every day when I see our department when I come from the “thal weta” it makes me smile, I climb down the stairs feeling relived since I had unknowingly found a home, away from home.. And it sure is a big family you find in there, a huge one.. and among those there is a few people whom you can call your own, those who will never ditch you and will never turn their backs on you when you are in need, those who will try to make you laugh when you are in a weird mood, those who knowingly or unknowingly help you go through rough times, those who trust and believe in you, those who will listen and understand you and those who will always be there.. And yes I found those small and precious set of people, that made me say “oh uni? It’s totally rocking” whenever someone asked about it.. 

So deciding to come to uni seemed to be the best decision I’ve made in the past 2013, I will never ever regret that decision for my entire life, if not for that I will never be able to meet those wonderful people who made a big change in my life while becoming a part of it. I feel I’m blessed, I sure do! :)

Oh and yes this will not be complete if I didn’t mention anything about the precious incident where my mobile phone slipped into the gully at the wash room floor and almost a half of the batch came to save it :P love you guys!! <3

And the badulla trip, (lol) was a trip I’ll remember for a life time.. I can literarily close my eyes and go back in there even right now.. Who cares what people think or say, those 3days filled with fun and laughter (yes the LAUGHTER, LOL) with the people I love will be those of the most memorable ones of my entire uni life.. <3

Um… well that’s probably the 2013 of myself in brief.. It did suffer through lot and LOT of rough times and it sure ended in the worst possible manner (yes,  with starting of the exams) but yet when I turn back and think, I have no regrets at all and the memories bring only and ONLY smiles to my face, for I believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason; EVERYTHING happens for the best!!.. 

So thank you 2013, for all the happy moments and cherished memories you have given me.. And dear 2014, I am really hopeful!! :) :)